Living Life

One of my favorite Uncle's just died unexpectedly. He was healthy and active till the end and lived a long, full life. For that I am grateful. Death always asks me, am I really living? because our days really are numbered. (I have had many debates with myself about living vs. existing.) I suppose we all have our own definition of what living means to us. On one hand, when I think of many experiences I've had and places I've been, I have lived.

 You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. ~ C.S. Lewis

On the other hand, spending day-after-day biding my time at work provides the means to live my life, but does not feel so alive each day. So I ask myself,  self, what would you be doing if you weren't going to work?  I'd do the same things I enjoy doing at home now, plus go to environments I want to be in and get involved, as well as find out of any possibly careers there.

Wherever you are - be all there. ~ Jim Elliot

I'd start a meditation practice because I've wanted to do that for awhile and I haven't made the time. I'd find places to volunteer so I can help my community in a positive way. I'd still try to plan the trips and travels we want to take. Even though I feel like I put those big trips on hold indefinitely because funds are lacking. All the more reason to budget now and afford it sooner than later.

With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts.

~ Eleanor Roosevelt

Time to start the above actions now. The day job still provides the means and doesn't really inhibit any of those. Sometimes it just takes thinking it out on the page to see some options or answers.